Today has been one of those days! I just sat down for a breather and need to vent, so hold on and here goes nothing!
Well were less than 14 days away from our first football game and it's Homecoming!!! I am so excited and anxious. School is officially in full swing now and we're getting the bedtime routine down. I wish I had to word to describe just how proud I am of Jeremy. He is a Coach, a head varsity baseball coach, assistant football coach, and assistant basketball coach! I am so proud of him. When I think about going to the games every Friday night (for football season) I get goosebumps thinking about looking down and seeing him coach, mentor, shape, teach and love all of those boys...it just makes my heart melt! He has accomplished his dream. As for me I couldn't be more happier, well Icould be a little more happier, I'll explain later, I get to stay home with our three amazing boys everyday and watch them grow up! Jonathan aka Jay has started kindergarten and his first day was great! Michael, well he is just Michael, and Biscuit he talks up a storm now!
When I said I could be a lit bit happier--well I could--I have overcome losing our baby but I want another one so bad now. All the books/article I have read said this is normal! :) I was finally content-so much for that! All the feelings I have had the last 4 years about being pregnant, carrying, and delivering a health baby has resurfaced. I have a hard time when my friends get pregnant, when I see a baby, when I see a pregnant lady, when I see baby clothes, anything that involves a baby, well it upset me. I hope that I dont have to wait another 4 years to get pregnant with Baby #2. I just pray that if God gave me a small taste of what it is like to grow His child inside of me that He will give me another chance to carry and deliver a healthy precious miracle! Since Jay is already 5 I hope baby #2 comes very soon! We will keep praying for God's plan and hope that it is revealed soon along with peace about the situation.
Hut, Hut...were going to keep on playing and hopefully end up with an extra player soon!
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