Embracing the Hospice Journey: Part II

 As I sit down to put my thoughts into words after a full week of training and orientation. I find myself on the cusp of a new chapter in my life—a chapter that is both daunting and incredibly rewarding. 

Today, I am thrilled to share the news that I have accepted a position as a nurse at the Hospice of Wichita Falls. The journey to this point has been a rollercoaster of emotions, but it feels like my "hospice journey" has come full circle, bringing with it a profound sense of purpose and fulfillment.

The decision to embark on this path was not an easy one. The mere thought of stepping into a role where I would be dealing with the complexities of life's end was intimidating. However, my personal experience with Hospice of Wichita Falls played a pivotal role in shaping my perspective. It was a journey marked by the unwavering support of incredible individuals—Nina, Jeannette, and the entire hospice team.

The journey began with the unimaginable: navigating through the final moments of my own son’s life. Our family found ourselves in the compassionate care of Hospice of Wichita Falls during the challenging times with Jordan. What was an overwhelmingly painful experience turned into something unexpectedly beautiful. Nina and Jeannette, with their empathy and professionalism, not only eased our pain but also helped us find moments of beauty in the midst of the profound sadness, in not just my experience but the experience of  43 other people that got to be a part of Jordan’s homecoming. Their dedication, coupled with the holistic approach of the hospice team, transformed the process into a profound and meaningful experience for everyone that night. It wasn’t until months later that I experienced the true essence of hospice care—an unwavering commitment to providing comfort, dignity, and support to both the patient and our entire family.

Now, as I take on the role of a nurse at Hospice of Wichita Falls, I am humbled and still find myself pinching to ensure that I am not dreaming. The opportunity to be a part of this ministry feels like a calling—one that beckons me to contribute to the legacy of compassionate care that touched our lives so deeply.

The road ahead will undoubtedly be challenging. The emotions that come with end-of-life care are complex, and each day will bring its own set of trials, which I will count it all joy. Yet, in the face of difficulty, I am fortified by the knowledge that I am not alone. After just a week of training I am confidant that I am part of a team—a family, really—that understands the importance of empathy, compassion, and the profound impact that genuine care can have on those facing life's final journey.

As I step into this new role, I carry with me the lessons learned during my own family's hospice experience. It is a unique perspective that fuels my determination to make a difference in the lives of others. The hospice journey has come full circle, and I am ready to embrace it, armed with the understanding that even in the most challenging moments, there is an opportunity to bring comfort, peace, and moments of beauty.

So here's to new beginnings, to embracing the unknown, and to being a part of something much larger than myself. I am filled with gratitude, excited for the journey ahead, and ready to make a meaningful impact—one patient, one family, and one moment at a time.

Just shy of five years ago I wrote an entry about our personal hospice journey in hopes to educate others, especially about Pediatric Hospice: http://meaganandjeremykirk.blogspot.com/2019/03/when-being-strong-isnt-enough-unspoken.html?m=1

Affirming Choices Through a Game-Changing Complaint

Recently, someone said, “The problem with Meagan is she wants to do mission work.” Those words lingered in my mind, making me ponder whether pursuing our purpose is truly a problem. Shouldn't using our gifts to further the Kingdom be our calling? 

In the quest to understand our life's mission, reflections become essential. Since facing the loss of Jordan, I've sought to embrace trials joyfully, and live by James 1:2-4. Even in the toughest moments, finding joy, however elusive, brings perseverance, a testament to God's faithfulness.

God spoke the word "International" to be several times over the last few months, leaving me uncertain of its meaning. While I secretly hoped for a physical move, God had a different plan, a surprising and amazing direction for our family. Despite not fully comprehending "INTERNATIONAL," I've learned not to hesitate when encountering international opportunities.

A recent Facebook scroll led me to a desperate post from a mother stranded in Mexico with her special needs daughter facing a critical health situation. 

Immediately, my mind raced, trying to figure out how I could help.

Here's the revelation: your purpose may be unfolding in your daily life, not necessarily in grand gestures but in meaningful actions aligned with God's plan.

Because I’m trying to obedient and my recent time spent  at the border the post caught my eye because she was in Mexico. 

Because of my job as an ED at a medical non-profit I am have developed friendships with 100’s of parents raising special need children and belong to SN parent groups everywhere. Which is how I stumbled on the friend’s FB post. 

Because I am a nurse and my knowledge in the medical field I knew how urgent the situation is. 

Because I am a special needs mom I know first hand the fear that set in when your child is sick. 

Now for the best part… 

Because I was a part time exchange student coordinator, 8 years ago, I met a teenage boy from Mexico, who is now a doctor, who I still talk too, and he was able to help me, help her, help her daughter. 

This incident affirms that every season of life has a purpose, contributing to a grander design. Mission work isn't always about crossing borders, feeding the hungry, building huts or installing water pumps, although all of those things are amazing and life changing; sometimes, it's about keeping your eyes open to opportunities right in front of you.

1 Peter encourages us to use our gifts to serve others. By not wasting our God-given gifts, we fulfill our purpose and contribute to advancing the Kingdom. Your mission may be unfolding in the ordinary, so hold on, for it might get wild, but it's undoubtedly part of a divine plan.

Remember, we are just in charge of obedience, God is in charge of the results.

If my problem is doing mission work I don’t mind having a problem. 

How'd we get from there to here? Adventures in a {really} small town...

Life has a way of surprising us, and recently, we have embarked on an exciting journey of change, new beginnings, and a touch of adventure.

You know that feeling when you decide to take a leap of faith, step out of your comfort zone, and embrace change? Well, that's exactly what happened to us. After careful consideration, I made the decision to leave the Joseph Thomas Foundation, a move that came after lots of prayer, tears and counsel. Just 48 hours later, we were informed that Jeremy would not be allowed to return to TLCA for the next school year. For those in "regular" schools that maybe reading this, TLCA does not offer contracts, you can be relieved of your duties at anytime during the school year. In the eyes of many, it might have seemed like my departure from JTF was solely linked to Jeremy's career change, and while leaving TLCA was not in our plan, the reality is more nuanced. God was orchestrating the narrative of our next chapter. Now, six weeks later, the anticipation and excitement about what lies ahead in this new phase are beyond words. We're ready to dive into the rest of this chapter, embracing the unknown with open hearts and a sense of purpose. Leaving behind the familiar was daunting. After all, our entire family has spent countless hours building two different organizations to what they are today. Deep down, I knew my time at JTF was coming to an end and to continue the vision that I have to serve and advocate for the underserved would require me to turn the page and seek out where God would want me to be next.

So a quick recap- October 30, I resigned from my mission at JTF. To add some adventure, on October 31 Jaxon was bitten in the face by a pit bull on Halloween night while Trick or Treating. November 1, Jeremy was informed he was no longer wanted at TLCA. 

After reality set in our boys were crushed, angry, confused, and shocked. Over the next week they would learn life lessons about perseverance, dedication, dishonesty, and betrayal. It was time for Jeremy and I to hit our knees in prayer. When our boys, that were determined to have perfect attendance, refused to go to school because they "couldn't even look at them [staff and admin]", we knew we had to make some changes, quickly.

I was offered a job at a widely recognized non-profit within three days of my resignation. I knew I was not going to be able to accept the position because we would be relocating but I do feel like God used that job offer as confirmation that I was desperately needing, since both of us became "unemployed" semi-unexpectedly, within 48 hours.  

One week later God began opening doors for our family. November 9 our family was invited to interview at Electra ISD. Yes, our whole family, how cool is that?! 

How is Jay going to handle this, HE'S A SENIOR?

Will I need a job ASAP?

Will there be a special ed program?

Will there be a house big enough for us? 

Not only is it Christmas time, it's the MIDDLE OF THE YEAR!

Again, we prayed and we prayed hard. God answered our prayers in ways I never thought imaginable.

November 13 the boys said goodbye to friends and Jeremy said goodbye to his athletes and they made the move to Electra and started school two days later. The boys and Jeremy lived in our RV until I was able to move with the littles on November 30.

It is no easy opening a new chapter in the book of life. The first day brings a mix of anticipation and eagerness to learn, meet new coworkers, teachers, coaches, and friends, and dive into fresh challenges. And guess what? It's been nothing short of amazing! 

Now, here's the cherry on top –the boys are doing great! As any parent will attest, seeing your children flourish and adapt to change is a priceless reward. Their resilience and ability to adjust to new schools, make new friends, and face the uncertainties that come with change have truly filled my heart with pride. Jay is loving living in a small town, Biscuit is loving basketball and Jaxon has been building his own baseball field in the backyard and his face is healing and I think we will get to avoid another surgery. Michael is making friends quickly. Maddie Jo is enjoying time at home with the mama. Jett is absolutely loving riding the [handicap] accessible bus everyday and Jeremy is adjusting nicely to a lot less duties and being home by 4:30 pm everyday!

We feel incredibly lucky and blessed to be surrounded by a supportive network of old friends and family who have been our pillars during this period of change. Their encouragement, love, and prayers have been invaluable in making this transition a beautiful experience for our entire family. We have had people help us move, clean, unpack, do construction on our new {BIG ENOUGH} house, and more! 

As my time at JTF comes to a close on December 28, my heart is filled with mixed emotions. While I am genuinely saddened at the thought of parting ways with the incredible families I've had the privilege to know, I am equally thrilled about embracing a new ministry. Seeing God's hand in every sentences of the last chapter of our lives gives me an incredible amount of peace. Change can be bittersweet, but I'm ready for the adventures and connections that await in this next beautiful joyful journey.

Change can be daunting, but it's often the catalyst for growth, both personally and professionally. Embracing the unknown, stepping into uncharted territory, and trusting the journey can lead to unexpected and wonderful outcomes. It's a reminder that life is an ever-evolving adventure, and each change is an opportunity for new experiences, challenges, and victories.

As I sit here reflecting on this transformative period, I'm filled with gratitude for the opportunities that have come our way. To anyone contemplating a change in career, considering a new job, or navigating the challenges of change, I encourage you to take that leap. It might just be the beginning of an extraordinary chapter in your life.

Avoid lingering in a space where you don't belong, resist letting others define your value, and seek a place where your contributions are genuinely appreciated. 

Here's to embracing the unknown, chasing dreams, and feeling grateful for the blessings that surround us. May your journey be filled with joy, growth, and the courage to welcome the unknown.

I know it's an overused verse but holding on strong to Jeremiah 29:11-14! !

"For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Then you will call on me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart."

Stay tuned, the adventures are stopping anytime soon.